Fat Stuffs

So, I have been getting mixed comments to my battle for my body. While I love hearing that I am gorgeous and don't need to lose weight, the reality is that I do. And it is only partially about looks. I admit that I want back the hot, toned body of my youth. I realize that things like gravity and age will make that impossible without surgical intervention - and no, I am not going there. I simply want to stop lugging around the extra 50 pounds (yes 50 frickin pounds) and be healthy. I don't want to be super thin. I simply want to be the correct BMI for my height and have a healthy fat index. I should not be made out of 40% blubber. Muscles are good. However, simply building muscle mass is not equating to loss of fat. (I so wish it would!) Hence, I am reducing my calories and increasing my cardio. Once I get to a healthy place where my body is no longer storing up for the famine, I hope to be able to enjoy increased calories again. In the meantime, I am thinking healthy thoughts and willing myself to a fitter body.