Illogical

Dear Sir:
I just don't understand you. For a scientist, you show a remarkable lack of logic and insight into your own life. It boggles my mind. You have a job that you hate and that seems to hate you. This was your dream job not three months ago. The honeymoon lasted all of two weeks. You immediately begin the search for another position. You get offered a part-time position that you reject out of hand as beneath you. The job is a stepping stone - an opportunity to work for a multimillionaire with labs. It is a job in your field that has unbelievable networking potential. But you don't want to have to take a pay cut and build a lab. That would be all fine and good except that a breath later you state that you are willing to wait tables if you have to. WTF?! Really? You would rather wait tables then work this job that your friend lined you up for? If you fear failure and letting your friend down, then be honest about it at least with yourself.