Losing My Mind

Today there was a dead black cat in the road and I just wanted to cry. Last Sunday there was a dog on the interstate in the back of a truck (one of my biggest pet peeves). I almost had an anxiety attack. Right now I am way too emotional when it comes to animals. Animals are just a handy symbol since they themselves hold very little responsibility. I know my over emotional reactions are indicative of some other repressed feelings. I think I am still dealing with the deaths of my own animals, watching Staci pass, my desire to fix things - which stems from my interesting childhood, and our decision to not have a child. I do not regret any of these things; I just have not fully dealt with the emotional repercussions. I probably need a good cry. Unfortunately I am at work right now so I will try to hold back the tears until I have the space and time to unpack things. I am not actually losing my mind - just dealing with life as it comes.