Money is the root of it all

If I could afford therapy I would not need it. My anxiety stems from a fear of financial exigency. I have been especially stressed about money lately. I had to write a series of checks for the Gustav damage (the amount exceeding what State Farm has so far paid up plus our hurricane deductible)at the same time that my American Express card's limit was drastically cut. The AMEX was not simply where we spent money on fun stuff but was also my safety net. I had tens of thousands of dollars available in credit just in case. No longer. So now I have to really pay down the blasted card for emergency use within the lower cap. We are using our savings to survive the month and still be able to enjoy some semblance of a social life. It sucks. This is on top of my every present fear that layoffs are coming and I will be out on my ass. I hate feeling expendable and vulnerable. It makes me neurotic and difficult to live with. I need to win the lottery and become less insane. Now would be nice.